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Wednesday, April 08, 2009

LET ME INTRODUCE YOU TO SOME OF MY FOUR-YEAR-OLD'S NUGGETS OF WISDOM......

"GUARD-STEMMER"-THAT'S ANY LONG, GOOD STICK HE CAN FIND OUTSIDE.

"GUARD-STEMMING"-THAT'S WHAT HE DOES TO THE GROUND.....STILL NOT SURE WHAT IT IS. MAYBE HIS WAY OF GARDENING.

"SMACKIN' IT UP"-OH, YOU DIDN'T KNOW ALREADY? SURELY YOU'VE HEARD OF THIS. HE TAKES HIS "GUARD-STEMMER" AND DRAGS IT ALONG THE GRASS, THUS THE TERM "SMACKIN' IT UP".

"MOLE-HOLE DIGGIN'"-SELF EXPLANATORY.

"FORKIN' IT UP"-USING A FORK TO THROW SOMETHING, ANYTHING UP INTO THE AIR.

I'M SURE YOU'RE ENLIGHTENED NOW.


Tuesday, January 20, 2009

*I REMEMBER A PAIR OF RED BOOTS MY MOMMA HAD WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL, THEY HAD A RED LEATHER BELT THAT MATCHED. I ABSOLUTELY ADORED THOSE BOOTS AND THAT BELT. I ALWAYS WANTED TO WEAR THEM, BUT I WAS TOO LITTLE, I COULDN’T FIT INTO HER BOOTS YET. IT IS MY MISSION TO FIND AN AWESOME PAIR OF RED BOOTS FOR MYSELF THIS YEAR. I CAN’T WAIT. I CAN’T WAIT TO FIND SOME AWESOME LIL’ BOY BOOTS FOR DYLAN, TOO.

*TO YOU SEWING MOMMAS, I'M LOOKING FOR A GOOD SEWING MACHINE. I HAVE NO IDEA WHATSOEVER WHAT TO BUY. I'D LIKE ONE THAT ALSO EMBROIDERS. ANY IDEAS ON WHAT'S GOOD OUT THERE, BUT AFFORDABLE?

*I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO READY FOR SPRING. I AM READY TO BE ABLE TO GO OUTSIDE AND LET DYLAN RUN AROUND WITHOUT A COAT ON. I’M READY FOR FLOWERS. I’M READY FOR LEAVES. I’M READY FOR A LATER SUNSET. I’M READY FOR NEW LIFE.

*I LOVE MY HUSBAND SO MUCH. I LOVE MARRIAGE. IT’S JUST WONDERFUL IN SO MANY WAYS. SOMEONE VERY SPECIAL TO ME IS GETTING MARRIED SOON, AND I’M SOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR HER!!! SHE HAS NO IDEA HOW EVERY YEAR THAT HAPPENS OVER THEIR LIVES WILL ONLY GET BETTER, AND HOW THEY WILL LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH MORE THAN THEY DO AT THIS MOMENT.

*DYLAN’S DOING VERY WELL IN SCHOOL AND LOVING IT. IF EVERYTHING GOES AS PLANNED, HE STARTS 1ST GRADE IN APRIL OR MAY. I’M LOVING HOMESCHOOLING.

*I AM VERY MUCH LOOKING FORWARD TO THE REST OF 2009. I CAN’T EXPLAIN IT, BUT I JUST HAVE SUCH GOOD FEELINGS AND EXPECTATIONS FOR IT. LORD, THANK YOU, EVEN BEFORE YOU HAVE, FOR ANSWERING MY PRAYERS TO YOU THIS YEAR.


Wednesday, January 14, 2009

HOPE.

HAS THE PAIN OVERWHELMED YOU LATELY?

IS THERE A BIG CLOUD OVER YOUR HEART?

DO THINGS LOOK DARK ALL AROUND,

DO YOU FEEL LIKE FALLING APART?

 

WHEN YOU AWAKEN EACH NEW DAY

DO YOU JUST NOT WANT TO SMILE?

HAS THE NUMBNESS SET IN WHERE JOY

USED TO BE, DO YOU JUST WANT TO CRY FOR A WHILE?

 

ARE YOU TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT TRAGEDY?

DOES HAPPINESS SEEM FAR AWAY?

DO YOU JUST WANT TO SCREAM AND SHOUT,

NEED SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO YOU TODAY?

 

ARE THERE TIMES YOU FEEL ALL ALONE,

THOUGH YOU KNOW THERE ARE MANY AROUND?

DO YOU JUST WANT TO OPEN YOUR WINGS AND FLY,

BUT YOU KNOW YOU’RE STUCK THERE ON THE GROUND?

 

ARE YOU WEARY FROM FACING SORROW?

AND NOT JUST YOURS, BUT THOSE WHOM YOU LOVE?

DO YOU FEEL AT TIMES THERE IS NO HOPE,

BUT YOU STILL LOOK FOR HELP FROM ABOVE?

 

HAVE OTHER’S ANSWERS JUST FAILED YOU?

THOUGH WITH GOOD INTENTIONS, THEY COME…

YOU STILL HEAR WORDS OF EMPTINESS,

AND YOU’VE FOUND HOPE IN NOONE?

 

MY CHILD, I HAVE NEVER PROMISED

THAT YOU’D HAVE EVERY SINGLE THING THAT IS GOOD…

I JUST ASKED YOU TO ALWAYS FOLLOW ME,

THOUGH AT TIMES YOU WOULDN’T THINK YOU COULD.

 

I NEVER PROMISED ALL YOUR DAYS WITHOUT SORROW,

DEATH, TRAGEDY, AND SICKNESS ARE ALL PART OF THIS LIFE.

BUT OH WHAT SWEETNESS AWAITS YOU

WHEN YOU MAKE IT THROUGH ALL THE STRIFE.

 

I NEVER PROMISED TO BE YOUR GENIE,

ANSWERING YOUR EVERY LITTLE WHIM,

BUT I DID ASK YOU TO STILL KEEP TRUSTING IN ME,

THOUGH ALL AROUND YOU SEEMS GRIM.

 

I NEVER SAID TO PRETEND THINGS ARE FINE,

OR TO JUST PRETEND YOU HAVE NO PAIN….

YOU HAVE TO BE REAL WHEN YOU COME TO ME,

AND STILL TRUST ME WHEN GRIEF COMES AGAIN.

 

SO AS YOU GO THROUGH THESE HORRIBLE MOMENTS

AND YOU WANT TO WISH IT ALL AWAY,

COME ONLY TO ME, I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE,

I DID PROMISE I’D NEVER GO AWAY.

 

AND IN THOSE TIMES THAT YOU FEEL ISOLATED

LIKE THE RAIN HAS DROWNED AWAY THE LIGHT,

REMEMBER THAT I AM HOLDING YOU CLOSE,

THROUGH EACH DAY, AND THROUGH EACH NIGHT.

 

AND WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE LOSING IT,

GO AHEAD AND LET IT ALL OUT.

COME TO ME, SCREAM AND CRY TO ME,

I CAN TAKE IT ALL, EVEN YOUR SHOUTS.

 

FALL APART AND CRY UNTIL YOU CAN CRY NO MORE,

AND JUST LET ME WRAP MY ARMS AROUND YOU.

FALL APART LIKE YOU’VE WANTED TO FOR SO LONG,

IT’S THE BEST THING THAT YOU CAN DO.

 

AND REMEMBER THE PAIN YOU HAVE IN THIS LIFE

WON’T LAST FOREVER, IT WILL ALL SOON BE GONE.

I, YOUR LORD, HAVE ALREADY HAD THE LAST WORD,

I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU TO LEAN ON.

 

I AM YOUR PEACE, AND I AM YOUR LIGHT,

I BRING YOU DELIVERANCE, COMFORT, AND HOPE.

AND MY PRECIOUS CHILD, I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE,

EACH TIME YOU’VE COME TO THE END OF YOUR ROPE.

 

J.N.S. January 14, 2009


Sunday, January 11, 2009

*IT’S SO EASY TO FORGIVE MOST OF THE TIME, ISN’T IT? I MEAN, ONCE YOU GET PAST THE HURT, THE ANGER, THE BETRAYAL…….AS LONG AS THE PERSON WHO WRONGED YOU SHOWS TRUE REMORSE. AS LONG AS THEY REALLY ARE SORRY, FORGIVENESS IS A LITTLE EASIER. BUT WHAT ABOUT THE SECOND TIME, THE THIRD, FOURTH, FIFTH? JESUS, IN ESSENCE, SAID FORGIVE “SEVENTY TIMES SEVEN”….AND THAT IF WE DON’T FORGIVE, WE WON’T BE FORGIVEN.

AND HERE’S WHAT I’VE BEEN LEARNING. I HAVE BEEN HURT DEEPLY MANY TIMES (HAVEN’T WE ALL??!)….BUT THIS PARTICULAR TIME HAS BEEN BY THE SAME PERSON, OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. AND I HAVE CONTINUED TO FORGIVE. HOWEVER, THIS PERSON HAS NEVER, NOT ONCE, ADMITTED DOING ANY WRONG TOWARDS ME. AND I DOUBT THIS PERSON EVER WILL. THAT’S HARD. FORGIVENESS IS A TAD HARDER WHEN SOMEONE WHO IS A CHILD OF GOD, WHO KNOWS BETTER, CONTINUES TO HURT YOU….WITHOUT EVEN SEEING HOW HURTFUL THEY’VE BEEN. WHAT I HAVE DONE; I HAVE FORGIVEN. (AND HONESTLY, IT WASN’T THAT EASY….I STRUGGLED FOR A WHILE WITH IT.) BUT I REALIZED THAT I BOTH WANT TO, AND AM CALLED TO. AND I PRAY FOR THIS PERSON. AS HARD AS THAT IS SOMETIMES, I DO. AND IT IS HARDER ON SOME DAYS. ESPECIALLY WHEN I REMEMBER THE WRONG HANDED TO ME, OR WHEN THIS PERSON HURTS ME ALL OVER AGAIN. BECAUSE ONE THING I’VE LEARNED IN LIFE IS THAT USUALLY WHEN PEOPLE ARE JUST DOWNRIGHT HORRIBLE, NASTY, HATEFUL, SELFISH, RUDE…(AND I’M TALKING ABOUT CHRISTIAN PEOPLE, THE ONES WHO TRULY KNOW BETTER…)…WHEN PEOPLE EXHIBIT THOSE BEHAVIOURS…..THEY ARE HURTING. THEY ARE MISERABLE, AND THOUGH THEY MAY NOT EVEN KNOW IT, THEY WANT OTHERS TO FEEL THAT SAME HURT. (I'M NOT SAYING THAT WE'RE TO ALWAYS EXCUSE HURTFUL BEHAVIOUR.....THERE COMES A TIME WHEN WE DO FORGIVE....YET THROUGH THAT FORGIVENESS, WE STILL HAVE TO CREATE DISTANCE BETWEEN THOSE WHO ARE HARMING US OR OUR LOVED ONES. I DON'T BELIEVE WE'RE CALLED TO BE DOORMATS.)

FORGIVE SOMEONE WHO WRONGED YOU TODAY, WHETHER THEY ASK FOR IT OR NOT. YOUR SPIRIT WILL REST MUCH BETTER. DON’T EXCUSE THEIR BEHAVIOUR, BECAUSE IT DOES NEED TO STOP. BUT FORGIVE THEM. BECAUSE YOU WANT TO, YOU NEED TO, AND MORE THAN THAT….JESUS SAID TO.

AND IF YOU’RE THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS, (WE’VE ALL BEEN THERE, TOO….) DON’T LET PRIDE STOP YOU. DO IT QUICKLY, DON’T WAIT. GO AHEAD AND GET PAST YOURSELF AND THINK OF HOW WE’RE CALLED TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER.

***EDIT: I JUST WANTED TO PUT YOUR MINDS AT EASE....AFTER READING THIS, IT SEEMS THAT I MAY BE TALKING ABOUT MY HUSBAND. NO, IT'S NOT HIM. HE'S A WONDERFUL HUSBAND. AND WHO IT'S ABOUT ISN'T REALLY IMPORTANT....I WROTE THIS TO SHARE WHAT I'VE LEARNED OVER THE PAST SEVERAL YEARS ABOUT FORGIVENESS. I HOPE IT HELPED SOMEONE.


Saturday, December 20, 2008

JOY AND PAIN.

I FINALLY KNOW WHAT IT MEANS
TO LOVE YOU THROUGH MY DESPAIR.
TO LOVE YOU THROUGH THE HURT,
WHEN I CAN’T SEE YOU ANYWHERE.

TO LOVE YOU, BUT STILL WONDER
WHY YOU DO THE THINGS YOU DO.
TO LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH I FEEL
SO FAR AWAY FROM YOU.

TO TRUST IN YOU WHEN DARKNESS
SEEMS TO COVER THE WHOLE SKY,
TO HOPE IN YOU, TO FOLLOW,
TO LET YOU COMFORT ME WHEN I CRY.

I’M LEARNING HOW TO HOPE IN YOU
WHEN ALMOST ALL HOPE IS GONE.
TO TRUST YOU’RE STILL HERE
WHEN IT FEELS LIKE I’M ALONE.

I’M LEARNING HOW TO TRUST YOU
WHEN WAITING IS WHERE I’VE STAYED…
EVEN THOUGH EACH AND EVERY NIGHT
ALL I’VE DONE IS PRAYED AND PRAYED.

I’VE BEEN PRAYING FOR YOU TO COME,
FOR YOU TO ANSWER MY PRAYERS…
AND I’LL KEEP ASKING, I’LL KEEP HOPING,
THOUGH I CAN’T SEE YOU ANYWHERE.

BECAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU ARE HERE, LORD
I KNOW ALONE I’LL NEVER BE…
BECAUSE YOU SAID YOU’D NEVER LEAVE,
AND THAT YOU’D ALWAYS BE NEAR ME.

THIS WAITING I’VE BEEN DOING, GOD
CAN HURT SO MUCH SOME DAYS…
I WONDER IF I’VE DONE SOMETHING WRONG…
IF I NEED TO CHANGE MY WAYS.

BUT I REMEMBER THAT LIFE HAPPENS.
YOU CAUSE GOOD AND BAD TO RAIN.
AND LORD, I WILL STILL CLING TO YOU,
THROUGH ALL THE JOY AND PAIN.

JESSICA NICOLE SCHAFER
December 20, 2008



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